April 11dpo

11 dpo -- BBT was 98.5. So, woke up and noticed the rise in my BBT and was pleasantly surprised. I was dreading a huge dip that would mean AF is definitely arriving. So, what do I do? I rashly go and POAS. Even though I promised myself I wouldn't I took it as a pretty big sign to go ahead and do it. Well, heartbroken again with a BFN. The definition of crazy: repeating the same action with the expectation of a different result. Yep, that's me in the 2ww. My phone has an app to chart my bbts for me and I noticed the steady increase in temps and noticed my app placed a coverline for me and saw that this could mean I went triphasic. So, now had to research what triphasic temps meant, even though it was just one day of a rise so far...but learned it is a good sign, for some, and meaningless for others. Some ppl go triphasic w/o being PG, and some PG women don't go triphasic. So, boo, all this info applies to some and not others. I wish I was issued a guide to myself when I was born, so I'd know what my PG symptoms would be and what I would need to know about myself. Herrumph. Same twinges today. Brief period of lightheadedness when I was bending down. BBs feel better but slight discomfort remains. BIG change today beside bbt, was went to pee at lunch like usual, and noticed I had spotted brown something. Total meltdown ensued. Cried in my stall a bit. Frantically texted my CB for support because I was losing it at work and needed someone to understand my fears/woes/worry/confusion. She was great and positive as always and I'm hoping my spotting was IB and not AF trying to start. Get out of here, old itchy AF! I don't want to see you for at least 9 months!