The Dreaded Temp Drop of Death

CD 1: bbt: death drop -- LOL it sounds terrible I know, but its the sharp drop in temps that tells you AF is on her way. Usually she will follow a death drop on the very next day, sometimes, the same day. For me, I knew she was coming so I hoped she would come quickly so I could start hoping for next cycle's chances. I no longer need my grieving days, to mourn what might have been. I'm at peace with His plan, my Heavenly Father who is the Master Planner. I was happy that she came within hours so I could see when our next fertile week would be. And yes! I will be with DH during that time so I'm happy about it. The only part of me that is saddened is the physical part of me that has to endure the bloating, discomfort, fatigue, irritability, and cramping. But, God wouldn't have made me a woman if I couldn't handle it! We will be on the teacups au naturale from here on out so we put our faith in our marriage and unity and above all else, God. Please pray for us. (I have a special fondness for St. Gerard, please pray for us, too!)

12 dpo and still climbing?

12 dpo: bbt 98.65 -- Well color me confused.  My Fertilty Friend Chart

I didn't know what to expect this cycle, its had me running blindfolded since cd 3.  I guess I don't expect AF tomorrow anymore, I'll need to see a temp drop before I expect her.  I've had cycles with just a .05 bbt drop and the spotting begins.  If my luteal phase is extended from having medicated this cycle, I really won't know when to expect spotting or AF until my temps give me a clue.  Right now they're just trying to make me hopeful which I'm resisting as much as possible, abundance of really, more so than any hope at all.  I have vowed to never eat 15 bean soup in the 2ww EVER AGAIN.  I had really nagging twinges in my abdomen today and I just can't decipher if its gas bubbles moving annoyingly through my intestines or a symptom that I need to track.  I didn't sleep well again last night which can still be attributed to trying to rest during the day also.  Maybe I need to wear myself out so I can get some sleep.  My back has started to feel uncomfortable (from laying down all day I'm sure) and I've started a headache again (sigh, from scouring any clues online about "symptoms" on my phone).  A dear friend did her best to help (via text) me check my cervical position but there was just no figuring that out for me.  I'll stick with temping.  I think I've resolved to not poas again until Saturday if AF has yet to arrive.  Another dear friend (aren't I lucky to have so many) had her very handsome baby boy yesterday and DH and I were overjoyed to see his safe arrival.  I think its hot in here, must be Baby Fever.  :)  Good Luck and keep us in your prayers!


**Bleh wouldn't you know as soon as I post this I have to pee, and I noticed spotting on the paper.  Just a little.  I hope it stops, but it could mean AF really is on her way.  **

My Big Fat Negative with a side of Hope

11 dpo: bbt 98.51 -- I woke up as usual to temp at 7 am and I see a 98.51.  My highest temp this cycle.  I was expecting either a flat or a drop in temps.  This cycle has been so screwy I feel like I don't know what to expect anymore.  As this is my first medicated cycle, its hard to know what is "normal" for me.  I've been noticing but notsomuch noting what I think is a symptom, but hey its my crazy ride on these teacups so who cares that if AF comes at the end of the week, these "symptoms" will have been nothing but my overworked imagination . . . .
1-2 dpo: clumpy spotting.  Logical Explanation: still having ewcm and could have spotted from either the iui itself or Hopeful Explanation:  from a strong ovulation, further assuring myself I may have had multiple follicles.
3 dpo: creamy cm, all seems normal.
4 dpo: brief spotting.  Logical Explanation: Remnants of ovulation spotting or Hopeful Explanation: Super early implantation spotting coupled with a slight dip in temps.
5 dpo: gassy and bloated. Logical Explanation: DH and I are not eating meat during Lent and so to help with protein, I made a 15 bean soup. Hopeful Explanation: a miracle begins before I know it.
6-9 dpo: off and on gassy, bloated, skin break out. Logical Explanation: getting closer to AF, more bean soup, and the fact that I've been off of my antibiotics for acne for a week waiting for the refill.  Hopeful Explanation: beginning of a shift in hormones maybe?
10-11 dpo: tender breasts, fatigue, restless sleep, hot flashes, headaches.  Logical Explanation: closer to AF, maybe dehydrated, side effects from femara, resting too much during day means restless sleep at night.  Hopeful Explanation:  building up of HCG and Progesterone??

So here we are, 11 dpo, I'm ready for a nap since I didn't feel like I slept well at all last night.  I am not as disheartened at my morning's BFN as usual, until I see AF, I'm going to hope and pray that this is God's perfect plan set in motion.  Whatever that plan is, I hope and pray I'm ready and prepared to follow it.

It all started on April Fool's Day . . .

So much going on and I keep getting behind! Our house is up for sale and we're still living in it so that means daily cleaning, laundry, white glove testing lol and then being out of the house for showings. So I'm sorry I'm so infrequent lately on my blogging.

I did the femara from cd 3-7 this round and we were going to try a back-to-back iui however the day before my cd 10 scan, I flipping get a + opk. I had been noticing my opk on cd 9 was pretty dark already.  I freaked out and called my Dr about what to do, and she had me come in to do a LH blood draw. She wanted to know if I was at the beginning of the surge or the end. So Friday (April Fool's Day) we went ahead and just did the 1 IUI since it appeared as though I might have ovulated Thurs evening or Friday morning. What a bummer! My temps were all over the place this cycle so it was hard for me to determine when O had taken place and DH and I didn't even have time to bd before O! I had spotting up until cd 7 or 8 and then we tried on cd 8 but it just didn't "pan out" and then DH had to abstain until the IUI. So not sure what our chances are, not sure how I responded to the femara since we didn't get to the do the scan. I've been spotting randomly and so I think I'm done trying to guess what happened this cycle or what is happening.

Our numbers post-wash for the IUI were pretty low, 4.4 million/mL, but with nearly 2 weeks of abstinence, a fresh batch hadn't been produced in a while.  I hope we weren't too late with the iui and bd'ing altogether.  And I am so sad we didn't get to do the scan as I was really hoping to see if I responded to the femara.  I am sure I must have had multiple follicles as it appears by my temps my body kept trying to O, which is just so odd, so I can only figure maybe there were multiples follicles to try to release??  Anyway, DH and I are under the belief that no matter what we do, its how He has planned it and it will be, or it won't be.  So I have no idea when to expect AF, I'll just keep taking my temps even though they just keep confusing me this cycle, and we'll see what happens.  Thank you for your prayers, we appreciate them everyday!  And yes, I've taken it WAY easy this round, no heavy lifting, no packing, no yard work, just relaxing.  :)  Good Luck and FTTA!