Teacups start early in March!

CD 3 - Watch out, this teacup ride got started early. DH calls his urologist's office and asks them kindly to fax over his SA results (that should be in by now) to my Dr's office since today I am CD 3, if the results are good, we might as well try for an IUI this cycle. A game of telephone tag later, DH is informed since the urologist has not yet reviewed the results with DH, then DH nor any other Dr may yet have access to the results. So this morning there was a slight possibility we would move to IUI, holy heck, IUI, let me get my brain wrapped around that first! I jump in the shower in case my Dr calls and tells me to get over there ASAP for my clomid prescription. Then wait by the phone with the excitement mulling over. DH arrives home for lunch and gives me the news he just received, no go. Emotions shift from eager impatience to frustrated irritability. I know DH feels the same yet I blow up at him all the same. I owe him an apology when he comes back. The nausea I feel is not from a much desired pregnancy, its from the teacups; and I've been on them too long. The teacups, like my every 2ww, get me no place different than when I got on, yet I know I must sit here and spin and spin and spin watching everyone else get pregnant and start families, their nine months a blur to me. Has it really been another year of TTC? Five years of teacups. Sigh.