CD 12 -- pretty sure today will be O day. Tiny temp rise but having O pains and this is my 2nd positive OPK (I usually get 2 days because I'm a POAS addict and I probably catch the LH surge early and late). So I don't know how it keeps happening this way but I'm so not a fan -- DH will get his SA scheduled near the end of our fertile week. I can't change when my fertile week will be, our uncooperative lab only does SA's two days out of the week and requires 1 full week to get the results so we have to do it at least a week before our next urologist appt, which is March 7th. For those of you who don't know, SA's require a period of abstinence, anywhere from 1-5 days depending on the Dr or lab. DH was asked to have a 3 day abstinence period. 3 DAYS!! Normally, I wouldn't care if DH needed 3 days of rest, but in my fertile week?! Booo. So now I'm just complaining that this SA has potentially ousted our chances this cycle when in reality I need to know this SA result to see if we even had a chance to worry about.
In other news, my original CB had a her baby. He is adorable, looks just like mom and dad. It was so nice to see him and am thrilled for their blessings. It was a tough car ride back though. DH and I sat silently and I know our thoughts and hearts were flowing as one. We got home and just cried with each other. I would also like to see that perfect combination of DH and I, to be pregnant, to have morning sickness, to feel kicking, to have a bump, things many people take for granted, and I know that might not be. It can't be wrong, to wonder, to hope, to dream . . . I know TTC is a hard, treacherous road for those of us with infertility issues, but I don't think we're wrong to want that precious gift of life, too. Its never "instead of", I don't wish a blessing instead of someone else's, I wish for "also". To my CB and awesome friend, you are deserving, and I wish you a BFP before June. There isn't anyone I know whom I'd be happier for. FX'd this cycle!
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