Over a year of absence, but not abstinence....

God has blessed us. We were just about to start a new round of Clomid and IUIs and the Drs advised us this was it, next month when we start (this was May)we will try exactly 3 rounds, then looking into adoption is all we have left. Okay, harsh, but we knew our attempts were running out and we knew adoption was always on the table. We just thought conception would be in our life story also. Well, I filled my prescription for Clomid mid May to start whenever AF showed up. I was still charting and temping but not as obsessive as in the years prior. Anyway, I was just waiting for AF to show up so I could start my Day 3 of Clomid. Waiting. Waiting. Hmm, surely my temp should've dropped, still up? Weird. Should I test? No, don't jinx it. Ok, normally my temp always drops on 12 dpo, its still high! Ok, I caved, I poas, nothing obvious....but is that a hair line faint line I might see???? Who to ask??? BFF in WI look at this picture (I texted my pee stick to her, yes, she loves me) she thinks maybe, hmm, take another with a different test?? I say I can't, I discarded the urine! Will have to wait til morning, fmu is best anyway right? So now I have no sleep, can't say anything to Shane, can't get his hopes up again, we've had too many false alarms. So first thing in the morning, I drive to Walmart after Shane goes to work at 6 am. I get a digital test and an early response test. Remember this cycle was au naturale still!!!! Ok, breathe, test, wait..... aaaaaagghh!!! TWO LINES!!! Digital...PREGNANT. Yes, first person I tell is my BFF in WI, and I'm bawling, scared, happy, out of this world joyful. What now? Need a blood test. I call the base, they know we are being treated for IF so they say come right on in. I wait for an hour which seems like 4 days, and beta is positive!!! We are pregnant!!!!!

Skip forward to present day. I'm now nearly 20 weeks pregnant with a little one due in January 2013. God is so so good. We never understood His timing, but we don't need to. Our trials have strengthened us and prepared us for hard times. We appreciate SO INCREDIBLY fully our blessing we've received in a way that someone who didn't go through it, will never understand. We are grateful for each day in our journey. Military family going through deployments, tdy's, separations, and on top of all that, throw on 5 years of infertility....we've broken, but we've come back stronger than ever and with the deepest understanding of joy. I now have a new blog. Contact me if you need the info but I will no longer post on this blog. But I did want to update those thousands of people who visit this site trying to understand infertility and hope for the chance it can happen, know it can. I've checked the stats on this blog, I was amazed to see how global this blog has reached and I wish you all the best in your trying. I hope you get off the teacups. Pray, it will help. Trust, it will happen. Love, no matter what happens. We have conceived naturally, after a grade 3 varicocele repair. We conceived a year and a half after the surgery, naturally. Hang in there. So far, baby is doing GREAT, no problems, just joy. --Wish you the best, Valerie